Busy Day

So I wasn't so busy yesterday - but I've made up for it today!  I got up this morning and started cooking:

baked kale chips (a la Jaques Pepin)

Quiet Saturday

This is the first weekend I've been at home in a month!  And I have tons to do, but I'm making it a quiet weekend regardless.  I need some quality downtime with just me and then some with my hubby.

Michelle, I do hope you found the comment I left for you.  Your comment made me sad for you and do hope that you find a way to learn to be kind to yourself on this journey.

For Michelle

Michelle, you left a comment on my Punishing Myself with Food post from 2009.  I've left a comment for you there.

Being Kind To Myself

This is simply a reminder to myself:

It is cruel to wear clothing that is too snug and makes me feel like a stuffed sausage.

My skirt fit - slightly snug.  My blouse was snug, too tight in the arms and across the shoulders.  The belt turned into a boa constrictor around my waist.  I got crabby and just didn't feel attractive at all today.

It is kind to to wear clothing that is comfortable, fits well and makes me feel confident.


You know, I've always had a reputation of being sweet, simply because most people mistake being courteous and thoughtful with being sweet.  Not so much on that - I'm hardly sweet.  And on the other extreme, I'm hardly cruel either.  I go out of my way to not be cruel to others.  So why am I so cruel to myself?


That belt is retired until my waist is ready for it.  My waist did not deserve being constricted and pinched all day.  And I'm not doing that to it (or me) again.

Good weekend

D and I left Thursday evening for North Georgia instead of Friday morning.  This did something really wonderful for me - it eliminated the stress I usually feel trying to get my hours made up at work.  We got up there in time to relax Thursday evening and then work all day on Friday.  Working looking out the window at my beautiful creek!

He and I also talked a lot about my weight gain and some other things.  I've ordered a glucose monitoring kit and will start measuring my blood sugars each morning for a while.  We want to get a better idea  of which foods (or drinks) cause the most impact.

Better yet, we actually checked in with each other before automatically preparing and eating dinner on Friday.  The result was that we skipped dinner and I was fine with it.

And I played with flowers, went to the farmer's market  (scored a huge back of kale for $1!), and basically just enjoyed a good relaxing weekend.

Tough Day

I woke up sometime in the wee hours yesterday morning with the big toe joint throbbing. I ignored it and even went on to do Leslie Sansone despite the dull throb of that big toe joint. < /br>

That made the gout angry, and there was no ignoring it today!

Have I mentioned that I'm quite bitchy when I'm in pain? It's not one of my better traits and I do try to control it. Not so much this morning when work hit me out of the blue with crap. Let's just say that I was not in the running for Ms. Congeniality.

Sigh. The cost of forgetting to start my day with kindness? Vanilla ice cream. At least a cup.

And I spent this evening being kind to myself. And it's better.

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Work is busy

And I stuck to my guns.  I told people I was leaving at 4pm and the ones who decided that I wasn't serious found out I was.  "No, I'm sorry - I can't get that for you.  I've  just shut down and I have to leave."  She wasn't happy.  But I was  - leaving on time gave me:

• An easier commute home
• Time to hit the grocery store
• Time to move my body with Leslie Sansone  (2 miles from the 5 Advanced CD)
• And peace of mind

I have to work a little tonight, but that will be OK.

Had a great weekend - a girlfriend and I had a girls'  weekend at Coosa Creek.  Much fun - lots of talking, some good girlie food, some good wine, some shopping and some walking!  Uphill walking!  My friend and I walked the paved footpath from the parking lot at Brasstown Bald to the top- we climbed about 500 feet in .6 miles!  It was steep and I took my time and made it.  Yay me!  And thanks to A for encouraging me to keep going!

http://www.georgiatrails.com/gt/Brasstown_Bald_Trail

Lots of baby steps today

I left work sort of on time for once.  And when I got home, I announced to D that I was going to do something novel: workout.   A real, honest to God, sweat-making workout.

For the first time since I started losing weight, Leslie Sansone was hard. And I feel really good about sticking with it and getting two miles in.  Stupid pedometer only registered 3 miles.

And I made a decision about journaling.  It's gonna be a bit too hard to start a regular practice each morning.  So - I will journal on the weekends and do sun salutations every morning.  That's my plan and I start tomorrow morning.

Acknowledgements of what I did well today:

1.  Ate more slowly
2.  Paid more attention
3.  Reminded myself I could be hungry for an hour
4.  Worked out
5.  Really enjoyed 2 Godiva gems. (dark chocolate, of course)

June 1st Weigh-In

Looks like I'm going to start weighing myself daily again.  It truly is best for me.  I stepped on the scale this morning only after repeating to myself:

May I be safe

May I be happy

May I be healthy

May I be at peace

I wanted to calm and comfort myself before seeing the number.  And I needed (and did) calm and comfort myself after seeing the number.  And today, I repeat what I did yesterday - I eat healthy portions of good food and walk as much as I can.

The number - it's over on the right column.